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fullthottle) wrote2019-11-24 11:58 am
fullthottle) wrote2019-11-24 11:58 am
TL;CR MEME
1. Comment with your character.
2. Receive comments from others.
3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
4. Endure everyone else reading your comment like the vultures they are.
Sarah w/ Shouta Aizawa
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Pretty much all of their interactions are going to be stuck with that weird note in the back of Aizawa's head, like. This is?? The author??? Which, well, if that information had dropped at a different time he may have taken it better but dying sure sort of opens your mind and makes you wonder what the hell's going on anymore.
Not to mention when a guy your age but way shorter just sort of looks at you and explains you're cute because gap moe??
He definitely trusts Chuuya enough as an ally after their adventure in the ruins but there's a bit of him that's basically like "hm. not sure I can handle this person"
which isn't an insult or compliment it's just more evidence of aizawa being a socially awkward guy
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aizawa IS gap moe
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he just has a lot of trouble parsing anyone saying things remotely positive about him
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then prompto was dead and aizawa didn't think about it much, especially because blam monday morning he was a demon
Once they were both dead there was a bit of room for that interpretation to move from "he's annoying (negative)" to "he's annoying (neutral-positive)"
Through the missions, trial watching, and getting to know Hizamaru, Aizawa's ranking is pretty solidly up here in "this is a kid" (aizawa everyone here is 18+) "and kids deserve to not have to worry about this stuff" so he's basically just thumbs-uping at their relationship like you do you, we're all stuck here to be demons, whatever
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So, Aizawa definitely hated him off the bat from their first conversation. He gets that what he was saying may have sounded crazy but- it was kind of his first clash with a world vastly different than his. And the fact he was immediately rejected and called delusional just sort of- he might have taken it personally when he shouldn't have.
From there, it advanced to "what a dick... but he's cute." There was definitely an aspect of physical attractiveness that he weighed- although it didn't balance out the dickishness. If anything, it gave him more reason to try and avoid Shiraishi because he's already unpleasant and then the attractiveness + the nature of this place made it... rough. And, again, Aizawa was kind of- mad at himself for being irrationally attracted to Shiraishi! And, as far as he could tell, Shiraishi couldn't care less about him.
then he was possessed by a demon!!!!!! and, again, the demon made such great strides in their relationship with aizawa was stuck watching from inside
and that made the feelings COMPLICATED because aizawa was able to assess the irrational value of shiraishi through the lens of interacting with the demon
But then he was dead. Now, being dead was a great time for him to overthink his feelings. He always knew, deep down, that if their goal was escape then a relationship was stupid. There was always a degree of emotional separation and then there was suddenly this very big physical separation to deal with, as well. Then you start to realize you might miss someone, you stop and wonder if you're idealizing them, you wonder if they're thinking about you- he was basically a mess.
then shiraishi was dead too and- suddenly being near him again + the school mission sort of slid the breaks on everything until The Truth came out and changed a lot of things
With the idea they might be stuck here forever, that suddenly made wanting to pursue something... more logical. So, he started slowly and delicately pursuing that. he also realized he did have an incorrect vision of shiraishi (so did half the game, it seems) and where he had bought into Shiraishi's knowing attitude he realized, like- wow you're possibly more emotionally stupid than I am- wild
That did make his pursuing a little more delicate because- with someone who knows that little about themselves- he really didn't want to force anything on him. He stuck to levels where he could be sure if Shiraishi decided he didn't like it, he'd plainly say so.
And at a certain point the more selfish view of love ("I want to be around this person" "I want this person to pay attention to me") turned into a kind of more selfless kind ("I want him to find out what he wants" "I want him to be happy."). He is entirely serious that- he wouldn't have tried to sabotage the Wish to keep them together. And if Shiraishi decides he can't ever like him romantically, he won't press it. Still, by endgame he has to admit that- he likes Shiraishi and that is an objective fact- even if it isn't really logical why he does.
... keep in mind that the fact he likes shiraishi is not exclusive to the fact shiraishi is kind of a jerk but he's- a jerk he likes! a cute jerk! who likes cats!! and he'd like to kiss!
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In the few interactions they had, there was a degree of- professionalism and a sort of understanding that can only be built on presenting the premise that "anyone could try to kill you and any moment" and getting an "oh, mood" kind of response. Even though they never tried delving into each other's histories, there's a lot you can understand just from that.
Haymitch, uh, does end up in the pile of people he apologizes to because like... sorry... you fucked a demon that had stolen by body... the demon was also immune to the touch-horny so it was extra kind of sketchy in terms of- I wanna say "taking advantage of" Haymitch but basically the idea of setting up a premise for fucking insincerely.
... then by endgame, like, I don't think he'd be down for fucking sincerely which is a shame because visibly-older guys hot
just by then it really factors in that they don't know each other well and aizawa has a cat-man he's obsessed with
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"AIZAWA?? IS GOING TO FUCK TAAKO FROM TV??"
They had a nice dynamic, tbh, and probably would have kept up as decent fuckbuddies if not for... the whole demon thing. Taako was one of the people Aizawa, stuck in his own mind, was kind of worried for just because- he's attractive?
Like, objectively so, even if they didn't have emotional ties to it. and if the demons are linked to sex/romance then he could be at risk? then again the demon did tie him up and leave him and not kill him so.
Anyways, things were slightly more complicated once Taako died because they'd both had a chance to go in their own direction a bit. Plus, once Taako had his magic back it was sort of- even if that was his natural self, Aizawa just didn't see the point
(also aizawa just has weird tastes and prefers taako with showing roots and scars, ok)
That said, Taako was the one glowing light of optimism once they figured out the whole... fiction thing. And Aizawa doesn't understand and refuses to understand a damn thing about magic but he respects how much Taako tried.
So, yeah, he doesn't want or expect Taako to like him and it's really refreshing to just- have an acquaintance of mutual dickishness. If asked, though, he would say Taako's alright and he likes him just fine. Even if he ended up tying him up and leaving him. "It's fair payback."